Just an Hour and Cuffs: BDSM fan fics

BDSM stories are really my passion. I devour these stories when I read them, and love learning more about the lifestyle. While I'm no expert, I do try to give an accurate representation as best I can. I research in books, online, and most of all, I talk to people that are in the lifestyle so they can correct me when I'm telling something inaccurately. I love asking questions and finding out exactly how deep, sensual, creative and beautiful this type of relationship is. I can't say enough good things about the BDSM way of life. Truly breathtaking.

My current stories on fan fic right now are:

Just an Hour, recently completed, following 3 couples: Edward/Bella, Emmett/Rose and Jasper/Alice. Watch them on their journey as they find their way in the BDSM lifestyle.

Cuffs, written for a friend and focused only on 1 couple: Edward and Bella of course, and what I love about this story is that it's told completely from the Dom's perspective, and all in present tense.


VISUALS:

Chapter 18  Cuffs-- visual

Here ya go, a picture of the love balls she used. So many fun toys to play with--how's a subbie to choose?

Couture Collection Eclipse II

Link, if you want to know more about them: http://www.shopadameve.com/index.php/cologne-c-995/couture-collection-eclipse-ii.html

Chapter 17 Cuffs -- song


I'm actually not a fan of Vampire Diaries, but I absolutely love this song, and even I can admit that this man is some serious eye candy. Those eyes... Wow. And I figured some of my readers might be a fan of Damon on this show.

This song reminds of Edward's obsession with his little girl.
 
The song's called Bloodstream by Stateless.

Chapter 16 Cuffs -- visuals and Dom/sub arrangements

This is the VixSkin dildo with the 2 inch diameter mentioned in this chapter. VixSkin is supposed to be as lifelike as you can get. I have a few different VixSkin dildos, and while they are enjoyable, I don't ever see enough of a difference to put them into my permanent rotation of regularly used toys I keep close at hand. But still worth trying it at least once if you're in the market for a new sex toy, so I don't want to discourage you. They are expensive though. Usually $60 or more.

http://www.edenfantasys.com/dildos/realistic-dildos/maverick-vixskin

The video's kind of cool on this as well so you can find out how it compares to the competition.

I do own a 2 inch diameter dildo that is not VixSkin, and that bad boy is in my permanent rotation. It's one of my few toys that can make me squirt if I mount it or get it at the exact right angle. Yep, it's messy, but so worth it. And there's no way to adequately describe how intense double penetration is with something this large filling you up when you're entered by your lover in the other hole. Yeah, it's pretty damn spectacular.

Think fire works but with gushing instead. Best way I can describe it.

On to the question a few of you have asked me. Some of you are wondering if all Dom/subs are 24/7 where it's present in their everyday life every moment. It varies by couple to couple just as the kink list does. Some only want it in the bedroom, some only on weekends or other specified times, dates or places. With a more limited basis I'm sure it ocassionally bleeds over into their regular life, but I'm not an expert on this. I do know, there's no hard and fast rule. Some want it all the time though, and this Edward and Bella want it 24/7.

I'm sure some readers are wishing there was some down time where she simply called him by his first name, where it seems a little more kicked back, but they're happiest this way, both of them. They have a very intense need to live this lifestyle as much of the day as possible, and their strong need for each other tends to strengthen the craving. So for them, it works.

You're not going to see this Bella struggle with calling him Master all the time because this is what she desires. It would be forced to call him Edward the majority of the time she speaks to him. If you remember, from the very beginning before she really knew him at all, she always called him Sir out of respect. Why would she change that now? It's ingrained in her, and it's as natural to her as breathing. It's even more important now if she wants to keep that connection constant with him. They both love it, so it's not simply to serve him or done as an "act," or only as a part of their playing together, it's truly who they are.

I hope this helps. Thanks for those of you that asked about it.

Chapter 11 Cuffs -- Subspace and Subdrop

One of the most intriguing aspects of this lifestyle to me initially was the idea of subspace and subdrop. That a person's mood and personality could be so altered from such intense physical sensations and a deep connection, that it's not something that the sub can necessarily control at first. My understanding is that over time she might learn to look for warning signs of subdrop, but hopefully if she misses them, her Dom won't. He'll see them and do something to make sure it doens't get to that point.

Now, subspace is even more amazing to me. To trust a partner so fully that the mind can just drift away like it's floating in an almost trance-like state--damn. I want that. I can't imagine anyone not wanting that--feeling that good. Yum!

It's not something that can necessarily be planned and isn't even really the goal, but I've been told it's an added bonus and when it happens, damn.

Damn.

Damn.

Damn.

Are those enough damns for you?

All right. Don't listen to me blabber on about it. Read some of these links by other submissives that share their experiences on these topics, since they describe it much better than I ever could:

http://kimdebron.tripod.com/id24.html

http://submissivemusings-mariposa.blogspot.com/2012/12/sub-space.html?zx=1460734e10996b3c

Chapter 10 Cuffs -- Toys and Punishment

A few visuals for you today. NONE OF THEM ARE SAFE FOR LOOKING AT WHILE AT WORK!

Here's the link for the flogger in case you want to see exactly what he used:

http://www.stockroom.com/Deerskin-Flogger-P1473.aspx

Although a crop wasn't used in this scene, here's one I've been told is excellent:

http://www.stockroom.com/Flexicrop---P4277.aspx

(I actually just got a crop, not this one exactly, but I'll let you know what I think after we use it in the near future...)

Tweezer nipple clamps with chain:

http://www.stockroom.com/Adj-Tweezer-Clamps-w-Linked-Chain-P561.aspx

And finally, here are the links for info on punishment, written by people in the lifestyle.

http://www.domsub.info/punishmentideas.shtml

http://www.leathernroses.com/generalbdsm/ravenpunishment.htm

Chapter 9 Cuffs -- Dominance vs. Abuse

One of the things I read and hear about are people saying Dominants are abusive, that they’re taking advantage of a woman and demeaning them. Nothing could be further from than the truth than that. Here’s the difference—this is a consensual agreement.

This is why going through both individual’s kink lists thoroughly before ever playing is so essential. This is also why some choose to sign a contractual agreement. This way they both know upfront what the other needs, what’s agreed upon and how things are expected to go.

What the general public fails to understand is that the submissive has all the power.

What? How can that be? She’s surrendering it all to him!

Yes, but he has no power unless she gives it to him. What she’s done is said what will and won’t happen. She tells him what’s acceptable, what she wants, and then it’s up to him to implement it all. What helped me to finally understand this was to think about it this way. Say I want a house built. I tell the architect what I want and don’t want. He drafts up the plans (the kink list), and I go through it and approve or tell him what to tweak. Once it’s where I want it and he’s agreed it’s within his scope of abilities and expertise, then I sign the contract and hand it over to him. He then starts to build and makes it his own project. He does it his way, and I trust him to do right by me. He wants me to be happy, so he’s not going to do a shoddy job. And I want to stay out of his way so he can do the best job possible without me micromanaging (that’s called topping from the bottom, in case you were wondering—when a sub starts telling the Dom how to do something during a scene). Is it scary to give up control and trust this builder with my life? I mean, I’ll be the one living in this house day to day, not him. Yes. It’s scary, but it’s also liberating to not have to worry and obsess over every little detail. He has the expertise, training and tools to handle all that stuff better. He knows things I don’t—has experiences that lend to what he’s doing. Why wouldn’t I trust him unless he’s done something to make me nervous.

Now, what if he starts to build and I decide I don’t like the way he’s erecting a wall? I can safeword. It essentially means, “Hey! Stop! This wasn’t what I thought it would be like.” Then we can halt what we’re doing, go over the plans again if needed and discuss what the problem is.

So, is this an abusive relationship?

What if he wants access to my email, my Facebook, twitter accounts, my phone and mail? What if he wants access to my bank accounts? What if he tells me what to wear, who I can and can’t talk to or be around outside of work? What if he tells me what to eat, how often to exercise or even what kind of makeup and perfume to wear? Is that stepping over the line?

The only way it’s abuse in my mind is if she doesn’t want any of this and tells him no, but he exerts his will over her anyway. If he does that, she can break the contract, say it’s not working for her and end the agreement. This means he’s no longer her Dom and she’s free to go. See why I say she has all the power?

Obviously, he can break the contract, too and say it’s not working for him as well if she wants things he’s not comfortable with. What if she’s into pain, and he’s not okay administering a lot of it in the way she wants? Is that a unified relationship? Nope.

What I’ve been told by other submissives I’ve talked to when they’re not openly public about their Dom/sub relationship is that the rest of the world just sees their Dom as a controlling asshole. They see him order her food at a restaurant for her, speak for her, walk her to the bathroom and hover outside the door until she’s safely back out. These outside people say, “This man’s borderline abusive and almost has her brainwashed!” My questions is, why do they care? If she’s blissfully happy, and the submissives I’ve talked to are elated their Dom’s are protective and possessive and there for them, what’s the problem?

The beauty of this relationship is that they are both meeting a need in each other that cannot be met any other way. She needs it to be about serving and worshiping him. And he needs it to be about protecting her and keeping her happy by orchestrating all her affairs outside household duties like cooking and cleaning. There are clearly defined roles here, and one is very decidedly masculine and the other clearly feminine. I love that. I admire that they can go against the grain and do what feels right deep down in their core. That takes a ton of courage. Good for them.

Before I end this little blurb of mine, I want to touch on the nerve that gets hit with most people unfamiliar with this lifestyle—punishment. Whoa! Punishment? Like a toddler? Nope. Not the same at all. And not every punishment for every infraction is a spanking. There are a variety of ways to deal with discipline. But why is it even needed? Isn’t that archaic, almost like a caveman? No, it’s not, and here’s why… If you’re like me and you have submissive tendencies, then you know what it means to beat yourself up over every little thing you do wrong. I’m a master at this. I love the idea that when I do something wrong, a Dom would mete out a punishment and then it would be over. We’d both be able to let go because there are no grudges held. Justice is served. I would know the rules upfront, and if I purposefully broke them, I’d know there was going to be a punishment in the end. It’s liberating to know he wouldn’t think any less of me afterward. That it would be a clean slate when it was over. I cannot say how much I love this and how beautifully this works. There’s absolute respect and forgiveness involved. Where else do you see this? And like I said, it’s not always about corporal punishment. It could be something like computer privileges taken away for a day, standing in a corner, or the worst of all (in my opinion anyway) no contact with her Dom for a period of time he determines.

The other part of punishment that most of us don’t realize is he never punishes while angry or when he’s feeling out of control. It can happen hours or even days after the original transgression happened, so he’s not unleashing on her and hurting her more than is necessary if they choose to go with a spanking or anything else physical.

Now, here’s the fun part. I’ve been told by some submissives that sometimes they’re naughty on purpose because there is nothing sexier than when he goes into Dom mode and punishes. Holy hell… Yeah, I can see that. There’s something about being told to crawl with his belt in my mouth that would get me all sorts of wet as he gives me that look…

The other part of this is what about getting in trouble on purpose for his benefit. Whaaa…? Yeah, it happens. He’s having a hard day at work, feels out of control with extended family or something else is out of his control. Well, she can push his buttons on purpose so he’s forced to punish her, and he gets his needs met. Everyone’s happy, and he’s in charge once again. Balance is restored.

Absolutely stunning. This is a unique, complex relationship, and it all comes down to trust. Without trust it doesn’t work, and if I was being abused by a Dom against my will, would I trust him? Hell no.

When a Dom calls his sub a slut, a whore, or whatever else he wants to say, it’s not meant as verbal abuse. It’s meant as a sign of respect and reverence. How is that possible? Because deep inside most women is a need to be a minx for her man. To be that sexual creature in the bedroom that drives him wild and unleashes him like no one else can. Being called a fuck toy is an honor, not a bash against her self esteem as a woman. He’s not abasing her, and if he’s using her, it’s because she wants him to. I’ll repeat that again—she wants him to. How do we know this? She went through her kink list with him, and through his, she agreed she wants this, and wants more than anything to be used for his pleasure. She doesn’t have to go against her nature and make sexual passes at him. Some women want a man to take absolute charge in the bedroom, and that’s a good thing because it fulfills a need in both of them.

There is so much more I can say about this world, but I think this is a good start. Hopefully it brings up some issues where it makes it easier to see why this is not a one-sided relationship. In the words of a submissive I talked to, she said, “I get way more out of it than he ever will.”

Amen, I agree completely. He’s there for his submissive in all things. She turns her cares and worry over to him. Who does that for him? It takes a strong man to be able to handle all this. To me, that’s the ultimate man, what a man should be. The alpha male, the protector and provider, the man who leads and takes charge because he’s compelled to, not because society or anyone else says he should.

Abusive? Absolutely not. Quite the opposite. Cherished and protected because nobody knows her better than him, and nobody cares about her as much as he does. Who else ensures her ultimate happiness? No one but him.

Chapter 8 Cuffs -- music:

Yes, I know, I still haven't said what the playroom looks like. I promise the story will unveil that along the way. It wasn't important for this chapter. It was the music that he was focused on and what it does to her. His focus is her right now--nothing else.

This is the song he played for her when he got her inside that room:


So, what do you think? Was the music what you expected him to play for her? Could you imagine it inciting her passions? Not your typical grind and "let's get dirty" song, but for her, it stirred the blood and turned things up a notch or two. Not hard to do with him in the room and in charge...

Yeah, I can imagine going into subspace in that playroom. :D

Chapter 7 Cuffs -- inspiration:

I know I already asked in my a/n for this chapter if anyone else had seen Exit to Eden, but I can't help it. I have to share this scene (and I've shared it on my facebook group before as well). I watched this over and over before writing this chapter. It inspired portions of it.

If you haven't seen it, I don't know what to tell you. It's a silly comedy, but there are moments I adored. I used to hide the VCR tape (that's how old this movie is!) in my bedroom so my kids wouldn't inadvertently get ahold of it. At one point I got rid of it (no, it did not break from overuse *snickers*) so now I keep thinking I need to buy it on DVD or something. Until then, I'll just keep watching this scene. And, man, Paul Mercurio has a nice backside.

Unfortunately, it's not a youtube video, so I couldn't embed it into this post. Sorry about that. Couldn't find it on youtube. Probably for the best anyway since it's not safe for work. (THAT WAS YOUR WARNING, PEOPLE. OPEN WITH CAUTION AND NOT AROUND CHILDREN!)

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/1345126/exit_to_eden_elliots_bondage_scene/

I really wish the quality was better and also that they'd used some real chains, rather than the joke of restraints he was in, but meh. You get the point. It's about accepting desires and fantasies, and sometimes that's the hardest part to overcome--our mind, our conditioning to think something's bad simply because it's not the norm or maybe others perceive it that way.

Oh, and in case you're wondering, these are the anal beads and ben wah balls he used on her in this chapter:




Yes, I know, these are the cheap kind, but I've found I like the way these move on the string much better than the silicone ones that are stationary. There's nothing like that movement inside of you during intercourse. Delicious is maybe a term that would come close, but it's not quiet to the level of amazing that this is. Especially when it rolls across that G-spot. I dare you to be able to keep quiet when that's going on, and don't even get me started on how anal sex is more intense with beads that are moving simultaneously inside both the ass and vagina. Seriously can't say enough about how mind-blowing this is.

These anal beads aren't quite what I have, and I had trouble finding a pic online. Imagine them looking just like the ben wah balls but several of them along the line of the nylon string.

Chapter 6 Cuffs -- her kink list:

One of the things that helped me write this chapter was looking at several kink lists, and, yes, I was ignorant of what some things were. I had to look at a glossary, so if you're like me and curious for more info, here's the glossary I used:

http://www.differentequals.com/glossary.html

Now that we've got that out of the way. Let's talk about Bella's kink list she handed over...

Here's one of the checklists I used quite a bit and the majority of the list below is from this website, though I did remove a few that had absolutely no bearing on this story:

http://latches.webslaves.com/checklist.htm
Here we go--Bella's instructions and her list so they could make sure they were compatible:

Directions:

Rating Scale














0 Utterly no desire to do that activity and don’t like doing it (in fact, may loath it) and ordinarily would object to doing it, but you would permit the Dominant to do it if they really wanted it (sometimes called a soft limit)
1 Don’t want to do or like to do this activity, but wouldn’t object it if was asked of you
2 Willing to do this activity, but it has no special appeal for you
3 Usually like doing this activity, at least on an irregular/occasional basis
4 You like doing this activity and would like to experience it on a regular basis
5 Is a wild turn-on for you and you would like it as often as possible

Note any additional information or nuances which might be important for your Dom to know in the comments section.
There is intentionally some overlap between categories. Unless otherwise stated, the sub is the recipient/target of the activity


Activity
Experience
Respond YES/NO
Willingness
Rate according to scale described above
Comments
Abrasion
No
3
This girl has sensitive skin and marks easily. Would want this in a place that could be concealed easily by clothing.
Age Play
No
2
Anal Sex
Yes
4
Experienced anal player.
Anal Plugs (small)
Yes
4
Anal Plugs (large)
Yes
4
Anal Plug (public under clothes)
Yes
4
Animal Roles
No
0
Arm & leg sleeves (armbinders)
Yes
4
Aromas
Yes
5
Asphyxiation
Yes
3
Depends on how it’s done, but it’s something this girl fantasize about frequently, especially with your hands.
Auctioned for charity
No
0
Not interested in sharing either one of us at all.
Ball Stretching
N/A
Bathroom use control
No
0
Beastiality
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Beating (soft)
Yes
0
Beating (hard)
NO
0
Blindfolding
Yes
5
Being Serviced (sexual)
Yes
3
Being bitten
Yes
5
Breast/chest bondage
Yes
5
Breath control
No
0
Branding
No
0
Temporary and depending on how it’s done would be okay. Nothing permanent.
Boot Worship
Yes
2
Bondage (light)
Yes
5
Ropes especially.
Bondage (heavy)
Yes
4
Bondage (multi-day)
No
0
Bondage (public under clothing)
Yes
3
Breast whipping
Yes
3
Brown showers (scat)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Cages (locked inside)
Yes
0
Absolute hard limit.
Caning
Yes
0
This is an absolute hard limit regardless of experience of the Dom.
Castration fantasy
N/a
Catheterization
No
0
Cells/Closets (locked inside of)
No
0
Chains
Yes
4
Chastity belts
Yes
2
Chauffeuring
Yes
2
Choking
Yes
3
See asphyxiation.
Chores (domestic service)
Yes
5
Clothespins
Yes
3
Cock rings/straps
N/A
Cock worship
Yes
4
Collars (worn in private)
Yes
5
Collars (worn in public)
Yes
5
Competitions (with other subs)
No
0
Corsets (wearing casually)
Yes
4
Corsets (trained waist reduction)
Yes
2
Cuffs (leather)
Yes
5
Cuffs (metal)
Yes
3
Cutting
No
0
Absolute hard limit, along with next 3.
Diapers (wearing)
No
0
Diapers (wetting)
No
0
Diapers (soiling)
No
0
Dilation
No
0
Dildos
Yes
4
Double Penetration
Yes
5
Electricity
Yes
4
Enemas (for cleansing)
No
0
Enemas ( retention/punishment)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Enforced chastity
Yes
4
Erotic Dance (for audience)
Yes
3
Only if the audience is strictly my Dom.
Examinations (physical)
Yes
3
Exercise (forced/required)
Yes
3
Exhibitionism (friends)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Exhibitionism (strangers)
No
0
Eye contact restrictions
Yes
4
Face Slapping
No
0
Fantasy Abandonment
No
0
Fantasy rape
NO
0
Absolute hard limit.
Fantasy gang rape
NO
0
I think it’s clear this is non-negotiable.
Fear (being scared)
No
0
Fisting (anal)
No
2
Fisting (vaginal)
No
2
Flame play
No
4
Very interested in trying this. Temperature play appeals to me.
Following orders
Yes
5
Foot worship
No
0
Forced bedwetting
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
forced dressing
No
2
Forced eating
No
0
Forced homosexuality
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Forced masturbation
Yes
3
Forced nudity (private)
Yes
4
Forced nudity (around others)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Forced Servitude
Yes
5
Forced smoking
No
0
Absolutely not.
Full head hoods
Yes
0
Gags (cloth)
Yes
3
Gags (inflatable)
Yes
3
Gags (phallic)
Yes
3
Gags (rubber)
Yes
3
Gags (tape)
No
3
Gas masks
No
0
Gates of Hell (male)
N/A
Genital sex
Yes
5
Given away to another Dom (temp)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Given away to another Dom (perm)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Golden Showers
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Gun play
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Hair brush spankings
Yes
5
Hair pulling
Yes
5
Hand Jobs (giving)
Yes
5
Hand Jobs (receiving)
N/A
Harems (serving w/other subs)
No
0
Harnessing (leather)
Yes
5
Harnessing (rope)
Yes
5
Having food chosen for you
Yes
5
Having clothing chosen for you
Yes
5
(head (give fellatio/cunnilingus)
Yes
4
Head (rcv fellation/cunnilingus)
Yes
3
High Heel Wearing
Yes
4
High Heel Worship
No
0
Hoods
Yes
0
Hot oils (on genitals)
Yes
3
Hot waxing
Yes
5
Housework (doing)
Yes
5
Human puppy dog
No
0
Humiliation (private)
Yes
2
Humiliation (public)
Yes
0
Hypnotism
No
0
Ice cubes
Yes
5
Immobilization
Yes
5
Infantilism
No
0
Initiation rites
No
0
Injections
No
0
Intricate (Japanese) rope bondage
Yes
5
Interrogations
No
0
Kidnapping
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Kneeling
Yes
5
Knife play
No
0
Leather Clothing
Yes
3
Leather restraints
Yes
5
Lectures for misbehavior
Yes
3
Licking (non-sexual)
Yes
2
Lingerie (wearing)
Yes
4
Manacles and Irons
Yes
3
Manicures (giving)
No
0
Massage (giving)
Yes
4
Massage (receiving)
Yes
3
Medical scenes
Yes
2
Modeling for erotic photos
Yes
3
Mouth bits
Yes
4
Mummification
No
0
Name change (for scene)
Yes
4
Nipple clamps
Yes
5
Nipple rings (piercing)
No
0
Nipple weights
Yes
3
Oral/anal play (rimming)
Yes
4
Over the knee spanking
Yes
4
Orgasm denial
Yes
3
Orgasm control
Yes
3
Outdoor scenes
Yes
3
Pain (severe)
No
0
Pain (mild)
Yes
3
Phone sex (serving Dom)
Yes
4
Phone sex (serving Dom’s friends)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Phone sex (commercial provider)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Piercing (temporary, play-pierce)
No
0
Piercing (permanent)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Plastic surgery
No
0
Prison scenes
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Prostitution (public pretense)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Prostitution (actual)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Pony slave
No
0
Punishment scene
Yes
3
Pussy/cock whipping
Yes
3
Pussy worship
Yes
4
Riding crops
Yes
5
Riding the "horse" (crotch tort)
No
0
Rituals
Yes
3
Religious scenes
Yes
3
Restrictive rules on behavior
Yes
3
Rubber/latex clothing
No
0
Rope body harness
Yes
3
Saran wrap
Yes
2
Scarification
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Scratching - getting
Yes
4
Scratching - giving
Yes
4
Sensory deprivation
No
2
Serving
Yes
5
Serving as art
No
2
Serving as ashtray
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Serving as furniture
Yes
2
Serving as a maid
Yes
3
Serving as a toilet (urine)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Serving as a toilet (feces)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Serving as waitress/waiter
Yes
3
Serving orally (sexual)
Yes
4
Serving other Doms (supervised)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Serving other Doms (unsupervised)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Sexual deprivation (short term)
Yes
3
Sexual deprivation (long term)
No
0
Shaving (body hair)
Yes
4
Having (pubic hair)
Yes
3
Skinny dipping
Yes
3
Sleep deprivation
No
1
Sleep sacks
No
1
Slutty clothing (private)
Yes
5
Slutty clothing (public)
No
0
Spandex clothing
Yes
1
Spanking
Yes
5
Speech restrictions (when/what)
Yes
3
Speculums (anal)
No
1
Speculums (vaginal)
No
1
Spitting
No
0
Spreader bars
Yes
4
Standing in corner
Yes
2
Stocks
No
1
Straight jackets
No
1
Strap-on-dildos (sucking on)
No
0
Strap-on-dildos (penetrated by)
Yes
3
Strap-on-dildos (wearing)
No
0
Strapping (full body beating)
No
0
Suspension (upright)
Yes
5
Suspension (inverted)
Yes
5
Supplying new partners for Dom
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Swallowing feces
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Swallowing semen
Yes
3
Swallowing urine
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Swapping (with one other couple)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Swinging (multiple couples)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Tampon training (in ass)
No
1
Tattooing
No
0
Temporary henna tattoos as long in done in easily concealed places are acceptable. No permanent tattoos.
Teasing
Yes
5
TENS unit (electrical toy)
Yes
4
Thumb cuffs (metal)
No
2
Tickling
Yes
2
Triple Penetration
Yes
3
Uniforms
Yes
5
Including others
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Vaginal dildo
Yes
4
Verbal humiliation
Yes
1
Vibrator on genitals
Yes
4
Violet wand (electrical toy)
Yes
5
Voyeurism (watching others)
Yes
1
Voyeurism (your Dom w/others)
No
0
Absolute hard limit.
Video (watching others)
Yes
3
Video (recordings of you)
Yes
2
Water torture
No
0
Waxing (hair removal)
Yes
2
Wearing symbolic jewelry
Yes
5
Weight gain (forced)
No
0
Weight loss (forced)
No
0
Whipping
Yes
3
Wooden paddles
Yes
3
Wrestling
No
0

Some of my readers pointed out some contradictions on Bella's kink list. They were done on purpose. Hopefully I can clear them up right now without giving away too much of the rest of the story.

Here are the items that were pointed out to me by various readers (questions in red, my answers in blue):

No breath play but willing to do asphyxiation and choking.

I've been told breath play is very dangerous and can be more frightening than asphyxiation and choking. Obviously, it depends on the players and their experience level, but since this Bella has only been with one other Dom and has only been in the lifestyle for a few years, she's heard a few scary things that have her gun shy on a few items. It's safe to assume this list will be revisted more than once as she begins to play with Edward and these types of concerns will be brought up and discussed. Along with this, there are some people that are cool with choking with the hands, but no ropes or chains around the neck. I would be one of those people. One I find incredibly erotic and hot, and the other just plain frightening. No judgment on people that like it because I can definitely see the appeal (on breath control as well--actually read an insanely sexy scene with breath control in a novel a few months ago, and it had me all worked up--ask me about it if you want to know more on this book) but everyone's brand of kink is different and there are nuances that are hard to flesh out in a short online story. For my published works, I get heavier into the reasons and explanation. Sorry but I just don't have the time right now to go deeper for a fan fic. Hopefully down the road I can...

No to foot worship but yes to boot worship.

Okay, I admit this is purely me injecting myself into the character here. Had my toes sucked once, and it was simply not for me. I don't like my feet touched at all. I consequently, don't like touching anyone elses feet either. That would a form of extreme punishment for me. But boot worship? If the Dom was wearing Doc's, hell yeah, I'd kiss that boot as long it wasn't covered in dog crap. There's something about being on the floor kissing his boot that gets me all sorts of tingly. Can't explain it, but it's there.

Yes to saran wrap but no to mummification.

Here's one where I wish I had a lot more time at my disposal to put more subtleties in the story. I'm very temperature sensitive and hate to sweat, but for some reason saran wrap appeals to me. I think I just like the way it looks and feels, and even sounds when it squeaks a little. And it can be applied in small sections of the body. Mummification seems more overwhelming to me.

I'm not overly claustrophobic, but being mummified creeps me out, so I went with my gut on these two. They might not make sense, but again, a kink list is very personalized. It doesn't really have to make sense, just fit that person's likes and dislikes. Once more, I injected my personality into this Bella.

No to beating but yes to riding crops, paddles and whips.

This is a tricky one. This Bella is not into pain, but a little bit of pain administered at the right time is insanely hot. A riding crop on the clit, on the ass or breasts I've been told is a staple in BDSM play for most couples, so there was no way I was going to leave this out. The feeling of a palm striking those spots is very arousing for me, so I can only imagine it being more intense from these impliments. Same thing with the paddles and whips. They kind of lent themselves in the same direction, but from talking to other people in the lifestyle, reading and, yes, even fantasizing about it, there's a difference between having these things done, or even being flogged, from being beaten. A light beating would be fine with this Bella, but she's not into pain. She wants the erotic nature of serving her Dom to be released out of her. Beating is not her thing.

Branding OK as long as it was "Temporary and depending on how it’s done would be okay. Nothing permanent."

Even a "temporary" branding will leave scarring and will pretty much never heal w/out a trace. It's a safer bet to always assume any branding will be permanent to a certain degree.

This is probably my inexperience coming through here, but I was thinking along the lines of markers like Sharpies, or even hickies, pinching where there's a temporary mark, or with a paddle that has his initials grooved into it. Henna tattoes even would be along these lines or tannning his intials somewhere onto her body. That's what I meant on this kink list here. I apologize if I was misunderstanding what this meant on the list.

Last but not least--"Will you please make a kink list for Edward and post that as well."

The answer for now is going to be no. I'm not going to even begin to pretend I could do a Dom's kink list justice. I'm still learning about this lifestyle and am not confident enough to do something like that yet. Maybe down the road in a few months I could go back and do that, but for now, I'll have to decline. Sorry. I figure you would have a better imagination anyway coming up with might be on his list. Besides, the story's told from his POV, so we're in his head. We're not in hers, so I thought her kink list would give us better insights into who she is. Thank you to all of you that brought these issues to my attention. I was happy to address them and clear up any confusion. :D

Chapter 4 Cuffs:

There are so many beautiful submissive poses, it was hard to choose which ones to use, but here are some examples of the poses described and used in the story up to this point.

Edward talks about imagining her in kowtow, and this is what he wants (one of my absolute fave positions. I can't imagine being more submissive and humble this--breathtaking!):


When her toes are described as en point, this is what I'm talking about:


Sex kitten posture or pose (but imagine it on a chair, and I'm sure he was imagining her naked just like this pic):



Classic damsel:


Imagine her sitting, legs together like this at her desk almost every time he talks to her:



If you want to see more of them, these are excellent sources I found very useful (warning: nudity in these pics, not safe for work):

http://www.restrainedelegance.com/preview/lexicon1/icons/index.php

http://thepowerexchange.wordpress.com/submission/submissive-postures/

Here's how they explain resting standing submissive pose:

(Female) submissive should stand with spine straight in neutral position, back leg is straight and bearing the weight of the body, front leg is slightly bent at the knee and brought forward in front of the back leg. Front foot is pointed or en pointe position.

I couldn't find any pics without full frontal nudity to show you this pose. Sorry... You'll have to go onto one of these two links I shared or do your own research.

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